It's been a while since my last blog post. That is because my life has been something of a cluster fuck lately. It has not only become a cluster fuck but it has also been an emotional fuck the last few weeks. My oldest has graduated from the 8th grade. I don't know why this has hit me so hard but it has. Perhaps is because I'm about to embark on the final stage of raising him under my roof. I'm also about to embark on the hardest years with him. I already see the changes coming. He doesn't want to hang with us very much anymore and he has become some what of a know it all. BTW, he knows nothing! Since there has been a little drama in his 8th grade group he has starting spending time with some other kids. I was talking to him about the fact that we are from a small town and he needs to choose his friends carefully. Your friends can make you or break you. I was giving him a hard time about this. He text me from upstairs....because this is how kids communicate these days. The text reads......"You are kind of making me mad about this whole friends thing. You always tell me not to judge people. Now you are judging. I have never given you a reason not to trust me. You need to trust me now. You can tell me what to do when I break that trust. I'm going to be friends with who I want. This guy doesn't do all that crap anyway. You need to chill out". I'm dumb founded. I want to cry. I do text back......Do you think I fell off a turnip truck???? You know when you see your kid making a bad decision and you seem to have lost control of it!!!! I don't know how to get through to him. He argues with me that this is a group who accepts him and doesn't talk behind his back. I get it, I really do. I was young once. I was kind of a bouncer in a sense. I hung out with lots of different people. But I remember what I was doing with the ones with bad reps. I argued the same points to my parents. Why can't we just program our children like computers to do what we want until they are old enough not to make mistakes??????? I'm still on him and will not stop. I keep trying to get him back with his old friends. When I tell him to hang out with them he says....."Mom how can I hang out when I am not invited?" Heartbreaking!!!!!! Being a parent is by far the hardest job in the world. I think we as women take it personally when our kids are not being perfect. We live with constant guilt.
I sat him down after his grades started to slip at the end of the year. I said.....take a good look around this house and everything in it. He kind of rolled his eyes and said...yeah. I said....Do you like the nice house, nice TVs, computers, Xbox, iPads, iPhones, and so on. He said yes...as he rolled his eyes again. I told him this is a temporary residence for him and his Dad and I own all these great things. I told him it takes lots of work to maintain this type of lifestyle. I told him if this is the type of life he likes he better get it together. Sad thing is I remember my parents telling me things like this. At the time it went in one ear and out the other!!!!! The world would be such a better place if we aged in reverse.
The holiday weekend Uncle Jeffy and Tracy came in from Dallas. We headed to the lake.
The kids had a blast.
The holiday weekends always bring in the crazy crowd. We had three boats of families with us. Not a one of us could take our eyes off this train wreck of a boat. That girl in the pink bottoms could move her ass better than anything I have ever seen. I had this fear of my kids in their early twenties on a train wreck of a boat like this!!!!!!! Please God, HELP ME.
Cole wants to give them a run for their money. We saw girls in thongs, girls that had their tops off, and lots of crazy dancing. After we left Lake Travis....Hub's said we are sticking to Lake Austin from now on. That is more of a family lake.
When we got home that night one of my good friends from Dallas stayed the night with us. This is her daughter that Blake went to school with before we moved. They were great friends. They barely said two words to each other this visit!!!!!! I had a great time visiting with Michelle....even if she is workout barbie. I had to lay next to her at the pool. This was an ego blow for sure. I wanted to stuff cheese puffs in her mouth!!!! I layed on the lawn chair trying to stretch my body out and suck everything in. Totally jealous of her body. I know what to do....I just can't do it. She knows what to do and just does it. Sometimes I swear I wish I could wake up a totally different person. Ya know the kind that wants to eat right and work out!!!!! Is that really fun though???? I do still grab my stomach fat while watching shit TV and ask it to go away......it just doesn't seem to hear me.
This is Cole with one of his friends on the last day of school. An odd pair but they work. I hope this guy has Cole's back in middle school. I was sad once again. This is Cole's last day in elementary school. I can't help but think where has the time went. When we moved here yesterday he was starting the first grade. Damn it to all those old people who were right about time flying!!!!! Speaking of old people. While Jeff and Tracy were visiting. We were all sitting on the patio. Blake came out and was texting. We asked him who he was texting. He said some girl from Lake Travis he met at the Nutty Brown. He tells us he told her she eats too much. We are all like......Don't tell her that! I say.....You have no game. He looks up at us and says.......You no longer know the game because the game has changed!!!!!!!! We all look at each other and say......when did we become the old folks and not the young cool ones. I can't help but think I still want to be at the kids table. Ya know throwing food at the person across from you. Hiding your pea's in your napkin. Wishing you were over there at the "Adult table". The adult table is totally overrated...I want a redo! I would so love the kids table. When it came time for me to move to the adult one I would go kicking and screaming for sure. These are the reasons I want to scream to get through to my kids about not wanting to grow up too fast. Enjoy that kids table...it's way harder to be an adult.
After school let out we found a great place to hang out. It's called Camp Ben, very close to the house and free. It has a great rope swing. The people watching is too die for!!!!
It's like a slice of heaven there....if you pretend you don't see the people smoking pot a few feet away!!!!
Anyway summer has started.......First day out we ended up in the ER. Aidan busted his eye open with a bat. The fights between the boys are constant. Broken shit already, we have a sign in our yard that says...coming soon. Hub's and I are about to get divorced over this move. We are fighting about everything. Where to move, what to buy, where to buy, what to get rid of, and what to keep. I wanted to have a garage sale but I can't seem to get up before ten. Hub's wants to donate for a write off. He offered me money not to have a garage sale. I say that is BS since he is paying me with our money. We already had a showing even though the house is not yet on the market. Guess who did everything to get it together. The funny thing is it was the Dr. and his wife that stitched Aidan's eye. They said they wanted a greenbelt lot that they can put a pool in. I think damn...hot DR in my house with a pool.....I told my realtor to say I come with the house. God help me I wish I had a wife. We are leaving for Chicago for a month in a day. I have not started packing because I can't get my face out of 50 shades! I finished the second book last night. They say this book puts the spark back in your marriage. Bullshit, this second one makes me want to slap my Hub's!!!!!!!! This guy in the book is the shit....minus the bondage issues! He adores this girl and totally changes to make her happy. It's all flowers and hearts for her.....besides the fact that he is a billionaire. Anyway....summer is here and all I have to say is wooooo fuckin whooooo......hope Dad...aka Grumps skips this post! He hates when I cuss!!!!!! Anyway sorry it's late if I miss spelled or had bad grammar it is what it is. We are headed to Chicago where I can be a kid again and let my parents do all the good, bad, and evil. Hopefully I can keep up with this blog I hate to write in!!!!! Damn it Kelly for starting me on this bullshit!!!! BTW, I have lost friends over it!!!!!
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