These people I live with......
I don't live with some of them anymore. When I started this blog my house was large and in charge, full of life. My house was never quiet rarely clean. My pantry was full. My life was insane if I can be honest. Three boys playing sports. I was running like a chicken with my head cut off. Wondering sometimes if I could get through the day and keep them alive or myself. The days were long but the years were short.
Running to three different schools at one point. I felt like all I did was pick up and drop off. Sometimes empty inside wishing these days would end. School parties, birthday parties, sports parties.....when will this end???? Messy house, tripping over backpacks and toys. The unending cooking and cleaning. Complete chaos. Sleep overs and the never ending stream of kids in and out. We were the house the kids came to.
Then there was not so perfect kids. The judgement of other parents. The compare game in my head. When will this end??? Now I say that was nothing and who cares really? My kids did normal teenage crap. I got out alright. Christmas and the un ending on line shopping for ridiculous shit. Again when will this end?? Fighting OHHH the fighting with three boys.....The 5000 thousand times a day they yelled MOM! He's touching me, this is not fair, you are the worst Mom ever, everyone else can, you don't understand, this is so stupid, WHY, and so on and so on. In my wildest dreams I never imagined I would miss the chaos.
Before my eyes my boys grew up. I could no longer carry them to bed. The bath time I dreaded was gone. Those sweet little voices were gone. Them wanting me around for everything went away. School parties, Christmas parties, field trips, games, all went away. In a blink of an eye. Now I hear myself saying things that used to make me cringe when old people said them to me. Enjoy these years...they go so fast. Just wait before you know it they are grown up. Enjoy driving them around you will miss these days. Those old asses are spot on. I often think what I would give to go back or freeze a certain part of my life. I would give anything to go back to that chaos. I miss it so much. I feel these were the best years of my life. Who would have thought. Even the bad times.
My house is different now. These people I live with are no longer a torn in my side. They are gone. My house is quiet and clean. No noise, no filled pantry, no driving, nothing to do, no three games on any given day. . Now they are a torn in my pocket book with college. NO FUN. They owe me a facelift when they make money. Because they took years off my youthful glow...LOL
So I sit here on a Friday night nothing to do, no football game. No waiting for them to get home at night. No wondering where they are, if they are where they are supposed to be. No them or their friends in my house. Again the house is quiet and clean. The pantry is empty. Me and the dogs watching Hallmark. Hubs asleep. TOO QUIET.
My kids are doing well. That makes me happy. Blake is working a full time job in land surveying. Still with his girlfriend from middle school. Cole is away at college station going to A&M. Still with his HS girlfriend. Aidan AKA pig pen is still a pig, a senior now, never around, just leaving dishes behind ....a rolling stone, no girlfriend. I don't write this blog often anymore. I started it for my kids to look back on. God help them when the read back. I wish I kept up with it. I love reading back on our stories. Makes me sad that our story went so fast. I sent Cole...AKA..my almost perfect kid a picture that popped up on my timeline through facebook. One of him playing football. Said I miss these days. He said "I miss them too, makes me sad those days are over". I might have done a happy dance...knowing that he too misses our time back in the day. Damn I sound OLD! He said something when he went to college that will stay with me forever. I was doing the ugly cry hugging him. He said " I'm super sad that my years are gone living with you and Dad as a kid in our home". That is a hard a pill to swallow as a parent. Mostly because he's right those years are gone.
I know I've said it before....To all you people with younger kids....enjoy them, it goes so fast. Don't sweat the small stuff and do not compare your family to others. It's a mind fuck that in the long run doesn't matter. You do you and what's good for you. Because these days go so fast. Now I'm just waiting for college graduations so I can have money again...and weddings and grandkids! No writer here So excuse run on's and bad writing. It is what it is!
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